From Walls To Freedom

It started out so small, she just keep adding brick by brick

After all, they say “Rome wasn’t built in a day,” and what she did isn’t some trick

It has taken sweet, careful time to fortify this place

Arrows cannot penetrate, stones cannot crush, nothing will make her lose face

Once upon a time it was sweet and open, gates never barred

Everything changed the day hurt and pain made each breath so hard

The exterior didn’t always match what grew inside

She cant exactly undo what happens when that perfect part of her died

Reality fades into such an intricately written play

Full of many veiled thoughts and emotions too deep for the light of day

No spec in time can really mark when it all began

Her heart needed protection in a way nothing else can

Let the walls come up and block out all this world could do

Let secrets stay buried knowing there’s no way through

It gets easier to embody the okay and the fine

Because she isn’t going to let anyone cross that never giving line

If there ever was a chance of those few getting in

She made sure that didn’t happen because it was her battle to win

How can she have fear beneath those eyes of stone

How can she be surrounded by people and still feel alone

How can she be so lost while claiming to be found

How can she cry so many tears and never make a sound

How can she go from the purest bliss to the girl wrapped in chains

How can she lose all the love that was once called gain

Fortress built so high nothing will break it now

Here is where its safe even if no one else knows how

After all was said and done she took a moment to slightly pause

Because for once she had to see what could really be the cause

And in one quick motion like the turn of a page

All of a sudden the walls became a cold, ruthless cage

When her eyes had finally opened, being closed so long in fear

She wondered and she cried, “How did I ever get here”

In trying to protect, hide, and run away

Her heart was locked inside herself, where it had no choice but to stay

This way of life had to come to an end

It was time for her to break and not just only bend

She begged and pleaded for the walls to crash and fall

But somehow she was stuck and bound to it all

And then a still small voice whispered in the black

“Don’t you know I love you and want my daughter back?”

It was like waking up from a nightmare in a dream

She couldn’t stop it now, her heart began to scream

This was no place for her with such an invitation standing there

Can she go outside, does she even dare?

Trust was never something she could do and now she was so blind

In her place of solitude there was no escape she could find

Falling to her knees in humbled desperation

A prayer was finally uttered with hope and confession

“Father I need you, I am buried and locked in my own prison

and I know your Son paid the price with his precious blood of crimson

I come and ask you now for grace and mercy I cannot understand

From the one and only Lord who knows in number the grains of sand

Please rescue this heart and soul, I cannot make it without you

I confess my darkest sins even though you already knew

Im letting go of all the hurt, pain, fear and love lost

Because you paid for me the price with the vast steepest cost

I come as your daughter, bruised, scarred and broken

Remembering that it has been so long since the last time we have really spoken

Hear my cry Father, and forgive this wretched sinner tonight

Too long have I been walled in this cage keeping out the light

It is to you I run with all that is left within me

Adonai, Abba Father, please show me what it is you see”

It was only then that the veil that had so long covered her eyes

Was removed by someone who loved her and she began to realize

If the walls were to come down and the fortress burned to the ground

She would have to let it go and let her heart remember the sound

Of what life was like when her Savior was the focus of her eyes

Before all of the brokenness and long lost goodbyes

Time had finally come for her to make the move

After all that she had done, it was today leaving something to prove

With a tattered heart and legs that could hardly stand

She took a deep breath and opened up her hand

The strangest thing happened when she took the first swing

All of the walls came tumbling down like the weakest sort of thing

It was only then that everything was finally clear

The walls only trapped and snared because of her own fear

Words in those moments seemed not enough to describe

What was going on in her heart, soul, and swiftly renewed mind

Years and years of building what she thought made her so strong

Was one of the weakest attempts at being who she was all along

Her Savior always knew this girl although lost still alive

Trying but so unable on her own to survive

A promise had to be made so unbreakable and always true

That she would have to fall into familiar arms she really always knew

“My daughter you have to trust me now and let 

your faith mature and grow

let my love guide you even to places you don’t know

for it is there in this place that I will surely remain

and I promise you that my love has washed away all of your stains

there is no more need to worry or let fear overcome your heart

from now until forevermore you will never stand in the dark.”

With these final words she knew that a changed heart she could see

This is who she had always been, created, formed, called, redeemed and finally set free.