Rocked by the Father & Danced with the King

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This morning the title of the lesson in my time with Jesus was "Saving Superwoman." Now, for clarity, I am not her in case anyone was wondering... but I know I often try to be in more ways than I ever should. Yesterday was one of many instances where I looked opportunity in the face and told Jesus that those desires were more expedient for my flesh than choosing Him. Have you been there too? Wrapped up in choices, struggles, and burdens that seem to always appeal to your longing way better than Jesus does, and in simple moments we choose.

Total honesty, the very first words I heard in my head were, "Was it worth it?" I already knew the answer. However, right in the midst of simply asking God for His forgiveness, I found myself asking how I was supposed to bear this weight of struggle in my life. How am I supposed to battle a part of me that doesn't want to choose Jesus? All I heard was a whisper, like He so often does with me,
"Let it rest on Me." Tears began to flow.

I could not comprehend His love and goodness and kindness in that moment. So of course more questions came (His patience with us is also really neat too). How can you be this way towards me God? My ears rang with a piece of a song, the meaning has been a constant lesson for me:
I could't earn it, I don't deserve it, still You give Yourself away
Oh, the overwhelming, never-ending, reckless love of God

It was many months ago when that first phrase struck my heart, and last night it left another impression. Forgiveness is so much more than I have ever given it credit for when in every day reality, it is a miracle. No, its not the flashy one that makes headlines, but its the inner one that creates new lives. The not so ordinary part about it? We did nothing to get it. We do nothing to add to it. Yet, it is the only way our worst and biggest problem can be solved, to be made holy and free.
A certain image that many know, of blood trailing down that cross carved wood, was not only about the death. A rock that was otherwise immovable, literally rolled out of the way so life could come out into the day. It is all for a different life.

I know many people might not like calling God's love reckless, that perhaps it somehow insults Him and is inaccurate or questionable because of His inherent character. Let me say that no way for us to describe it will be what it should, but I think if we were to step back and consider the way He loves, in our human understanding it is entirely reckless. I can for darn sure tell you if a friend came to me and described the give and take of this kind of love they had in a relationship I would say thats more than a little one sided, which would be the understatement of the year. 
For every point that we might see the love of God as reckless, or maybe at times impossible, it is in that moment and every other 10 million times more redeeming.

His love is what called to me. As I took a few moments to rededicate all of me to Jesus for the Savior He has always been, and I mean all of me, this strange feeling began to wash over me. I felt as though I was rocking or swaying, and I mean that quite literally... I am not sure what it was, whether I was being rocked in the arms of my Father or I was held hand in hand dancing with my King. Nevertheless, I am perfectly content with both beautiful displays of reckless, forgiving, redeeming love.

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